I love you... but i don't like you.

I've lost count of the vast number of things that God has been teaching me in the last couple months. From humility, to worship, to the importance of community, I've been challenged in almost every area that I find I am stubborn in. My time spent at school so far hasn't been a time of learning as much as a time of application.

I've heard these things since i was little, and am now finding the importance in "practicing what you preach" (another thing i knew.. yet didn't know)

The most notable areas under attack would be my cynicism, independence, elitism and selfishness. All of which are focused on my separation from community. I'll be honest. Community would be great... if it wasn't for the people.

I can totally see how God is using school to put an end to that... especially a school that keeps me from having regular contact with my finely picked friends.

This separation has forced me into contact with people I normally wouldn't choose to associate with. This is not saying that they are not good people who would be awesome friends. On the contrary, being shoved into these friendships has just shown me how narrow-minded I am and how awesome new friends can be.

There is no room for selfishness, elitism, independence and cynicism in community. I can try and hid it... but sooner or later it will come out... most of the time in a rather hurtful manner. If those are present, the only other members of community that you have... is yourself.

Have fun playing dutch blitz in that community.

No man is an island. - John Donne